It has been a long time since the last time I was here,and I've been through so much things and some of them even changed me.I don't know exactly who I am and what my personality is... Maybe I'm the one who should go to hell and suffer forever.
Once I was deeply convinced that I'm incapable of love(which turns out to be true BTW),about six months ago,I encountered an Ukrainian who moves to Turkey in order to avoid the severe situation of his own country.His name is Vadim Tsuman,he's kinda immature,but special at the same time and I was totally fasinated by him,what I wanted everyday at that time was to receive new massages from him,I was silly,stupid,completely forgot that this guy is actually younger than me!!I texted him,said him hello,and wasted my precious time on him,which he didn't give a fuck! WHAT'S WORSE,I thought he kinda likes me too,that's fatal!
I'm 20 years old now,20 years old,I've gone through 20 years life,but still a savage,a fool,a loser who can't even take control of her time,her life!who screws up all the opportunities yet still complained and moaned around!There's no use to cry,no use to screw more time! Now I need the world to know the new Kari! I'm new,I'm reborn.
I love you,Modigliani,I love you,Nietzsche,I love you,Jesus Christ,I love you,shitty life,I love you,Arts,I love you,Kafka,I love you,Russia,I love you,Prague,I love you,America,I love you,Vitas,I love you,Hopper,I love you,Lopez,I love you,Dali,I love you,Munch,I love you all,I love every one of you,I love life,I'm now full of passionate,I'll live for all of you,my loves.
IF YOU DON'T THINK ABOUT YOUR FUTURE,YOU DON'T HAVE ONE.
SO THINK ABOUT IT.
END OF THE ONLINE RELATIONSHIPS.
END OF THE BOHEMIAN THINGS.
FOCOUS IN THE PRESENT!
KARI!!!!
WAKE UP!!!